A wintery day??? I'll post!

Since, I've been back from Los Angeles...

I've been thinking.

I've been processing.

I've been yearning.

I've been attempting to learn.

I quit my job at American Eagle. I have moved on and glad of it... that place was beginning to wear me down. However, I miss seeing many of those wonderful people. I walked in on Boxing Day and was just so pleased to not have to fold clothing and sell product and work for 13 hours with a 15 minute break. I got to relax and chill!

My desire is to see the world change into something beautiful. Something filled with love and grace and compassion. Something not seen in a long time.

Recently, I've had frustrations... church frustrations. Should I be mentioning it? Probably not, but oh well! Why is it that church is so two-faced? At least most of them. Why are people so conniving? We want people to come in to our building and into our atmosphere when we are all so selfish about every little detail. Everyone needs to look good and needs to seem like they are great. This is what I get out church. A very conceded characteristic. How do we change this? How do we learn to move away from this?

I know church in a building tends to be run like a business. These business take on so many things that are wrong and incorrect of our view. We've brought in lists of rituals, decrees for proper behaviour and standards for appropriate clothing. We've become a "community" of people so concerned about the check-marks on the paper than how we act because we want to.

My plan... My idea... My desire... is to bring this mentality to an end. I'll start here and move forward, hopefully. Let's pray! Let's learn! Let's spend time growing in love! Let's start... NOW!

Writing Absence

It has been an incredibly long time since I wrote last. I've contemplated the idea of how great it would be to get back into the blog and have brushed it off on accounts that I don't have the will power to keep it up!

As of recently, however, I have found myself up really late at night attempting to conceptualize all off my thoughts and ponderings. I realized that there was no better way to collect them all than back on this blog. I hand-write WAY too slowly and I am usually on my laptop when I am at home! These thoughts also help me open my brain processes a little bit more. 

I have been wanting to get back into music and writing, but have been unable to really think and vocalize my thoughts and ideas... Here I can do it semi-"efficiently"! 

So here is the new attempt at my blog that I am hoping for!

nathizz

Complacency

We go around in a circle
never letting ourselves be changed
We figure this is circumstantial
"It's the circle of life"

When someone is changing it's shape
We fight back to stop it
To stop them from trying to escape
because "it's the circle of life"

As humans we can't let it go
stay in our boundaries and never progress
But why must we follow the same flow
Well "it's the circle of life"

The ring that we have assumed
is like a flower trying to bud
Our closed minds will never let it bloom
"It's the circle of life"

To be challenged is not a pressure
that we all try to experience
we flea from it thinking that pressure
is not in the circle of life

So why can't we just realize that it helps?
They make us think and contemplate
which will make us even yelp
"Why this circle of life?"

Pushing ourselves to grow deeper
and having a desire to push for the best
Nothing will come out of the sleeper
in this "circle of life"

So get up and move yourself around
Complacency is making this world stagnant
We need to push those who are found
to leave this "circle of life"

Then can we only start reaching
to a place that is higher than ours
Jumping and leaping and screeching
"No more of this Circle of life"

And finally we can struggle and fight through pain
Have ourselves be tested and never be the same
So that we can grow and change this circle saying
this circle we live in is no longer what we can blame!

Screaming for Want

You are always waiting
You teach us to do the same
But yet we are anticipating
That you somehow prove your Name

WE have a lack of understanding
when it comes to who you are
and the lack of comprehending
is not a way to deny you either

So as much as I scream stand by my side
and become present in my life
I begin to see that you did decide
to stand by me in this life

So now I find myself screaming at you
Not in anger, but in love instead
Take control over my life the time's due
Never let your love leave my head

Someone Found

It's you I found
I went in circles
Trying to find you
So I found you now

It's you I found
All the struggles
They went away
Because I found you now

It's you I found
My life is great
I've become quite happy
Since I found you now

It's you I found
The only one
That I want to talk to
For I found you now

It's you I found
All my life's plans
Are made for you
Because I found you now

It's you I found
Or is it you found me?
What about the we?
So We found eachother

We found eachother
It's the happiest we've been made
We found eachother
In you, me and God the other

We've found eachother