Lately, I feel like everything I wanted at the beginning of this school year has finally come into play! I have friends and others who I can talk to you and who talk to me when they see me. As well as, things that I am proud to say I am apart of. My faith I don't feel has ever been stronger and my schoolwork is finally making an impact on my life. I realize more and more each day, each hour, each minute that when you decide to take things into your own hands and try to make it all come true, you will fall apart and you will get frustrated with how they work out if they don't work out according to the set agenda.
This semester, as I probably have already mentiond many many times before, was when I really gave it up to God. I started immersing myself with christians and stopped being afraid of getting to know them, but took the time to know them and in turn they also wanted to get to know me. Here is what I learned.... if you keep thinking that the other person should put forth the effort to get you involved, you are sadly mistaken. How many times must a person invite you to events and try to get you to come and have you back out last minute because of the fear of what others may think, of the uncomfortableness you may feel when you don't know anyone. We must try to get out of the comfy zone and make our way to where it is not normal for us because that is where we start pushing ourselves. I am striving to be that better person, but the more I make itmy job to the better person and less God's, I realize I fail! As soon as I put it all on God for him to work wonders through me and let him be seen through me so that others may know His name and how awesome He is, that's when I succeed.
It's an incredible feeling and I never want to let it go more and more each day. I hit myself sometimes because I of my stupidity to move on forward and to not worry what others think, but to be happy in who we are. (I feel like my blogs try to tell one story, but end up bringing up a lot of topics and issues that are somewhat related. I go on tangents and I am sorry, but you probably know what it's like... ADDville here I come!)
As I sit here, at the stairs, by myself after everyone has left to do there prospective things. I find myself always thinking... reminiscing. Not wanting to go by a moment and forget about it because each moment is special and each moment is a moment in time that changes us in one way or another. I don't know what I'm saying anymore, so I'm gonna go and try to put this brain power or lack there of to the good use of studying... countdown Finals in 14 days... YIKES!!!!
L8s, latex, and and all that love stuff
*oh and if you ever wanna look at a bunch of photos that I've taken or others have taken with my camera, just go here and have a look! http://spaces.msn.com/indiacoconut/ there ya goes!
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