Changing in front of others

So, today has been different. I was actually doing work the first week of school, but I'm already stressing about it all. For those who said bible college was like sunday school... man no not at all! I had 3 classes yesterday, and I have so much work already that is all do at least by next week. I can't skip a class, eventhough right now I feel as though I wouldn't mind skipping tomorrow and sleeping.

Going through change is crazy. I feel like everything around me is just going at a steady pace, but I'm just walking just a little faster than everyone else. But with that in mind... I'm saying bye to some and hello to those in front of me. I've been reading about how when God wants us to do something for him and we doubt, it just stops us from what He truly wants. I don't ever wish that upon myself, but I do feel that I have been acting in that way. I'm constantly doubting the changes he has planned for me. And in this way He can't use me in the fullest way possible. It upsets me. I know some that are willing to give it all and actually let it happen. I want to, but feel like I need to control it because I'm afraid of how it'll end up working out.

I just spent the past 4 months getting used to one type of life. It was living at home, working all the time, and not really hanging with my friends. But this semester is all about living away from home close to my friends, going to school, no job, and trying to get it all sorted out. I want to spend as much time with friends as I can and want to be able to have enough money to do whatever. But my days just seem to be filled up more and more with other things... things that make me feel like I'm being trapped. Like others have already figured out what they want out of me. I want to break the chains and finally see that I am not living under someone else's wants and needs, but under God's.

As I leave to work on English, I send this your way... A Spotlight on Critical Skills in Essay Writing helps procrastination.

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