I'm sick of waiting
Waiting for this world to change.
It's taken me a long time to get here,
But I think I'm ready
Ready to realize my strength
And ready to accept my responsibility
to start changing this world
For so long I've found myself
Being insufficient and feeling it too
But I'm not
The G-O-D is on my side and
With that in mind I can do it all
Start locally and go global
So I proclaim I'm going to start
Trying to change this world
I'm going to strive to gain knowledge
Accept my wrong doings and just grow
Grow mentally, physically, emotionally
And of course spiritually
So it's now time to go off and do it
As the nike motto goes... Just Do It
It's what I will do now
Everyday from now on
Live life to the fullest and expect nothing back
Help others and expect nothing back
Follow the Lord and expect nothing back
The joys about it all... usually something comes back!
Love life, know you are loved
know you are cared for
JUST KNOW!
This world will change because I"m sick of waiting for others too
I will start the changing!
To change the world for you
Monday, October 08, 2007
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Coming together
So things in my life or coming together. I enjoy it so much. I'm slowly pulling my room in so it looks like someone lives here. A desk was just purchased, in my favour, yesterday because I needed one for the imperativeness of my studies. I can no longer sit on the floor with my back hunched over trying to understand what I bible verse is saying when the bible that I need I can't reach for because it was laying somewhere else on my floor. Now with this L-shaped desk... All will be accomlished. YEY... makes me smile!
Movies! So, I've been realizing more and more that there are so many movies that I have never heard of or seen. So I"m slowly building written documentation of movies that need to be viewed over the rest of my lifetime. If you have any thoughts let me know.
School, it's going. I love the learning aspect, but some of the teachers I want to kill. I think that there should be a class where it teaches you to be fun as a teacher so you don't bore your students to death. I insert here: "chlorophyll sounds more like bore-ophyll" (Billy Madison). All teachers college should not let someone graduate if they can't pass the verbal teaching "let's make everything actually interesting" test. It's vital to all the students in their future. It WILL determine who does well and who does not. But other than that, I'm learning stuff and it's sticking in my head roughly... I just have to look back on some of it to remember. So far, I've read 6 books of the old testament! a few more weeks and the rest of it will be read... YIKES!
That's my update for now... I"ll be back later
l8s, latex and all that love stuff
nathizz
Movies! So, I've been realizing more and more that there are so many movies that I have never heard of or seen. So I"m slowly building written documentation of movies that need to be viewed over the rest of my lifetime. If you have any thoughts let me know.
School, it's going. I love the learning aspect, but some of the teachers I want to kill. I think that there should be a class where it teaches you to be fun as a teacher so you don't bore your students to death. I insert here: "chlorophyll sounds more like bore-ophyll" (Billy Madison). All teachers college should not let someone graduate if they can't pass the verbal teaching "let's make everything actually interesting" test. It's vital to all the students in their future. It WILL determine who does well and who does not. But other than that, I'm learning stuff and it's sticking in my head roughly... I just have to look back on some of it to remember. So far, I've read 6 books of the old testament! a few more weeks and the rest of it will be read... YIKES!
That's my update for now... I"ll be back later
l8s, latex and all that love stuff
nathizz
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Final Fairwell
Heads I don't and tails I do
I'm finding out how I should feel about you
Scissor cuts paper, which wraps up the rock
And the winner is the one to whom you talk
There's two of us trying to figure it out
Both of us don't ever really doubt
That we care for you as much as the other
The only major problem is that he is my brother
So do we fight over who loves you more
Or should we give up this chance and close that door
I feel like I must try and seal my heart
Eventhough from you I don't ever want to be apart
He knows we were together and I told him to not worry
But as he is with you more I begin to grow weary
I wish I was with you forever in this life
But with him I never want to cause such strife
So I will do what I think is right and totally stay away
"Let him love you and care and comfort you" I'll say
You will make him happy as happy can be
And the love I have for you will forever be with me
So as time goes on and slowly you fall for him
I pray that I can be truly happy and not be grim
And not hold a grudge towards the situation
But be able to rejoice with you in your celebration
And I say this as a final fairwell
I love the way that your hair does smell
and how beautiful you look with no make-up on
It makes me stop and wish I had not withdrawn
The brilliance of your eyes, I get lost every time
I realize why giving you up was such a crime
And I can never tell you how much I love you
Because instead of me saying it, he will say "I do!"
So goodbye and goodluck to you in your life's endeavours
I'm going to try to put this love into the past and end it forever
It will be difficult for me to not fall back when your eyes see mine
But it's what true love is, to know that I should let you go and that all will be fine
I'm finding out how I should feel about you
Scissor cuts paper, which wraps up the rock
And the winner is the one to whom you talk
There's two of us trying to figure it out
Both of us don't ever really doubt
That we care for you as much as the other
The only major problem is that he is my brother
So do we fight over who loves you more
Or should we give up this chance and close that door
I feel like I must try and seal my heart
Eventhough from you I don't ever want to be apart
He knows we were together and I told him to not worry
But as he is with you more I begin to grow weary
I wish I was with you forever in this life
But with him I never want to cause such strife
So I will do what I think is right and totally stay away
"Let him love you and care and comfort you" I'll say
You will make him happy as happy can be
And the love I have for you will forever be with me
So as time goes on and slowly you fall for him
I pray that I can be truly happy and not be grim
And not hold a grudge towards the situation
But be able to rejoice with you in your celebration
And I say this as a final fairwell
I love the way that your hair does smell
and how beautiful you look with no make-up on
It makes me stop and wish I had not withdrawn
The brilliance of your eyes, I get lost every time
I realize why giving you up was such a crime
And I can never tell you how much I love you
Because instead of me saying it, he will say "I do!"
So goodbye and goodluck to you in your life's endeavours
I'm going to try to put this love into the past and end it forever
It will be difficult for me to not fall back when your eyes see mine
But it's what true love is, to know that I should let you go and that all will be fine
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
My Stupid Mouth...
So in three words I can talk about my day and majority of the conversations... "My Stupid Mouth". As great as the John Mayer song is and as pertinent to my life as it is... I just realize more and more that I will always say stupid things. I don't think about what I say sometimes and don't realize how rude it may come across.
As the saying goes... "actions speak louder than words", but for me the words are all I have. A mental note to remind... I need to shut up sometimes! I have the ability to talk and talk and talk and talk. And today it was brought to my attention that I don't know when to stop. It's a bad habit. I think it's because I like saying things before I here them from other people's mouth. I like to say things jokingly, but seldom there is a little stink inserted with it.
My actions have been lacking. All I do is complain, fight, or just get quiet... at least that's what I notice the most. As helpful as all those things are to get out my frustrations it isn't at the same time. It almost gets VERY unhealthy, specifically pour moi, I need to let things go. I need to be able to stop being stupid and rude. I need to think:
A mouth is used for talking and for communicating
And yet there is so much segregating going on in this world
that the world is no longer a unity of trust and love
but a way of deception, lies, and anger
I hate how we talk and talk about other things
but our own thoughts and feelings never come up
We hold it all back and revise the information we have gathered
Either holding it to someone's head or holding it up behind their back
It's a painful way to love, never feeling like someone actually loves you
Always thinking your back is the place where a murder will take place
You and I have a place in this world to lift I and you up
encouragement is the key, but our hate for eachother is the winner
We love to hate and hate to love, but love is the end product
Love we want, but love we feel we can't afford, so hate is what we do
Hate to have you and hate to be hated, but figure it's a happy medium
Why do we hurt? Why is my mouth so big
My mouth doesn't stop... it's unstable
Spewing words that don't make sense...
Always saying things it doesn't mean
I'm sorry to the world for the hurt it brings
I'll try to stop, but can't guaruntee it
A message should be sent when we are born
never learn to use because it will cause harm to the user
I propose as a quick end to this "poetic" rant of thoughts
That linger in the brain of the typical cynic
That is afraid of so much in this world, but fears to show that he is
My end comes to this... no longer will my mouth be open
to throw up words of useless garbage and create them
create the melodramas in my head which are built up from over thinking
HA... over thinking... you would think I don't think
but over thinking can be the reason to the means of the reason why
this sh*t happens to me with a clean slate, no marks on the board,
But screwed up once again... Yupp I've screwed up once again!
As the saying goes... "actions speak louder than words", but for me the words are all I have. A mental note to remind... I need to shut up sometimes! I have the ability to talk and talk and talk and talk. And today it was brought to my attention that I don't know when to stop. It's a bad habit. I think it's because I like saying things before I here them from other people's mouth. I like to say things jokingly, but seldom there is a little stink inserted with it.
My actions have been lacking. All I do is complain, fight, or just get quiet... at least that's what I notice the most. As helpful as all those things are to get out my frustrations it isn't at the same time. It almost gets VERY unhealthy, specifically pour moi, I need to let things go. I need to be able to stop being stupid and rude. I need to think:
A mouth is used for talking and for communicating
And yet there is so much segregating going on in this world
that the world is no longer a unity of trust and love
but a way of deception, lies, and anger
I hate how we talk and talk about other things
but our own thoughts and feelings never come up
We hold it all back and revise the information we have gathered
Either holding it to someone's head or holding it up behind their back
It's a painful way to love, never feeling like someone actually loves you
Always thinking your back is the place where a murder will take place
You and I have a place in this world to lift I and you up
encouragement is the key, but our hate for eachother is the winner
We love to hate and hate to love, but love is the end product
Love we want, but love we feel we can't afford, so hate is what we do
Hate to have you and hate to be hated, but figure it's a happy medium
Why do we hurt? Why is my mouth so big
My mouth doesn't stop... it's unstable
Spewing words that don't make sense...
Always saying things it doesn't mean
I'm sorry to the world for the hurt it brings
I'll try to stop, but can't guaruntee it
A message should be sent when we are born
never learn to use because it will cause harm to the user
I propose as a quick end to this "poetic" rant of thoughts
That linger in the brain of the typical cynic
That is afraid of so much in this world, but fears to show that he is
My end comes to this... no longer will my mouth be open
to throw up words of useless garbage and create them
create the melodramas in my head which are built up from over thinking
HA... over thinking... you would think I don't think
but over thinking can be the reason to the means of the reason why
this sh*t happens to me with a clean slate, no marks on the board,
But screwed up once again... Yupp I've screwed up once again!
Friday, July 20, 2007
Strugglin' With Every New Day
I take steps in the right direction
And pray to God that there is a section
In my life that is fully fulfilled
With love and admiration being spilled
over everyone and everything
The only problem is that in this life
There are happy, sad and moments of strife
Constantly battling eachother to win
The outcome is that within each victim
lies a bit of someone who is struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
It's hard to be happy in a world so discontented
People lift you up and tear you down just after a few seconds
They'll never please others, but try to please themself
His self, her self, itself, one's self, theirself
Myself is the one that's supposed to be forgotten
The reason is that peer pressure is dominating
It shows how you can all be nominating
one person to do the same thing if you just persevere at it
Force them if you will, so they feel they are adequate
Clearly it's part of the reason people are struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
Now staying part is very tricky
We have our ups, downs, and times that are sticky
Can't get out of the mud... I'm too far deep
Making us yell, freak and even at times weep
Our heads off just to STAY afloat
It erks me to say this but why can't people comprehend
Some of us need a way or a time to escape and depend
Depend on ourselves and that we can do things on our own
That we don't need others to watch how we've grown
It's an internal affair... they all should know I'm struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
And pray to God that there is a section
In my life that is fully fulfilled
With love and admiration being spilled
over everyone and everything
The only problem is that in this life
There are happy, sad and moments of strife
Constantly battling eachother to win
The outcome is that within each victim
lies a bit of someone who is struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
It's hard to be happy in a world so discontented
People lift you up and tear you down just after a few seconds
They'll never please others, but try to please themself
His self, her self, itself, one's self, theirself
Myself is the one that's supposed to be forgotten
The reason is that peer pressure is dominating
It shows how you can all be nominating
one person to do the same thing if you just persevere at it
Force them if you will, so they feel they are adequate
Clearly it's part of the reason people are struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
Now staying part is very tricky
We have our ups, downs, and times that are sticky
Can't get out of the mud... I'm too far deep
Making us yell, freak and even at times weep
Our heads off just to STAY afloat
It erks me to say this but why can't people comprehend
Some of us need a way or a time to escape and depend
Depend on ourselves and that we can do things on our own
That we don't need others to watch how we've grown
It's an internal affair... they all should know I'm struggling
Struggling to fight a life that is fulfilling
Struggling to come up on top
Struggling to make it through the day
Struggling to just be alive and stay
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