Cerebration Through Perturbation

In light of the slight conversation I had with Farquharson, yesterday, I figured that I would do a blog of constant typing. NO thinking involved. NO re-writing or editing. NO reading or re-reading. I just type whatever comes to my brain. The hard part about this is that there is so much I think about. Yes sometimes I feel as if I don't think, but at that exact same instant I realize that if I didn't think about some of these things I would never know where I stand on them. I would never think about how God has made it so for me to still be here and to still be able to have a good group of people that I can talk to.

Yesterday was when my highest of highs finally came crashing down. For about the past month I have been having the best time of my life doing stuff with people I like to hang around with. But yesterday oh man yesterday. Where do I begin? Such a nice day outside. I got to talk with a bunch of people and got to know a little bit more about them. I find it stupid on my part that I didn't begin this stretch of my life. I didn't get involved eventhough I wanted to. Now that I'm getting to know some of these people, they are graduating and the chances of me actually talking to them again are very slim to none, but that is okay right? I don't know... I just wish sometimes that I could have been a little bit more outgoing in the past so that parts of my life wouldn't have felt so useless to me. God has a plan I know, but I want to know why he can't just tell me what it is. Anyways, Lauren and I went to this Award Ceremony because Kat had a 3/7 chance of winning either $1000, $1500, or $2000. Sad to say that she didn't win, but we had a really good time. She was working the floor with the Nealanders International Inc. crowd... so jokes!

After we went to Mere's Art Show... very cool I was impressed with it and the ideas of it all. Pompoms, scrapbooking material. architectural design on the ground and yet concepts and the thinking behind it is so obvious once the ideas are explained. I found myself staring and taking all of it in. I was understanding it and at the same time was coming up with ideas in my own mind. I like it. The more I am doing other things and experiencing other aspects of life, the more I am starting to take in that science is just something I'm good at, but may not want to pursue for my future. I don't' know. So after, Alex, Kat, Lauren, Tom, Matt, Isaac, Jill, Mere, the Brown Parents and I went to Squirrels for a little bit of a hanging out, chillaxing time.

As we were talking, moreso everyone else. I was uncomfortable for some reason. After the dinner was over. Two things shocked me... 1. Mr. Brown paid for all of us and that was really awesome to see how people are willing to share what they have (Alex had mentioned something about it before at the Art Show, but I can't remember what the phrase was)! 2. How different her parents are compared to mine. As I was listening to the conversation, I couldn't understand why I felt wierd, until I realized that my parents would never talk about that kind of stuff and part of it was just being totally real. I know my parents tell the truth with a slight twist where it isn't really but it is... contradiction I know, but still! Anyways...

After we left Squirrels, I took the bus home. The only sad thing is that the bus didn't take me home at about 1 am the bus driver stopped and said this was the end of the ride. I was further from my destination and it frustrated me, but never the less I hiked on home. My feet frozen in the cold overnight weather and slowly freezing the rest of my body. I just got home and am not feeling typing more! Ugh... I don't want to go to FOP tomorrow, but never the less I will and will want to leave as soon as possible... badnight and l8s