Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Friends = Encouragement = THANKS GOD!

Tonight has been an incredible night of just talking with friends. Sure it's all been through MSN, but I've realized that Messenger makes us able to be more open with each other. We can express ourselves and our deepest thoughts without being too scared about how one would react when they found out. I don't techniquely like it because it hides us from the actually being there for the person, but it's a good exception for when we are kms and kms apart. Continuing on!!!

You Guys and Gals have just been an encouragement to me. I probably don't say it enough to you peeps, but you really have. Each one of you have shown me something in myself that I could change and make better. Each one of you have pointed things out in my life that are truly blessings from God and each one of you have let me do the same to you. I feel like this is what I want Christians to truly to be like. No worries of what the other will think, but just wanting to be open. We are open with our fears, our thoughts, our ideas, our joys, our praises, and our prayers. I just wish that everyone could be able to be as free and as open as this.

I'm not mentioning names because there are way too many people, but I just wanted to have a quick THANKS! Thanks for the prayers, thanks for the thoughts of concern, thanks for the smiles, the hugs, the hand shakes, the stares, the good times, the "other" times, and just everyday life. You've made it what it was supposed to be. And yeah just thank you all for being in my life and sticking with me through it all. "Our God is an awesome God!" That's it!

L8s, latex, and all that love stuff
- nathizz -

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Couples!

Ugh... I'm fine with this whole single thing, in fact I enjoy it. No problem whatsoever, but... ugh! Some people just need to get a room. It is very hard for me to be cool and easy going if you two continually are all over eachother for the whole time we hang out. Can I say third wheel? or Fifth wheel? or whatever wheel it is? And it's weird because so many conversations I've had with friends lately has been about my dating status. So let's get one thing settled right now... I don't need a girlfriend at this moment. Don't need her at all right now. Once a few of my struggles right now have subsided then maybe, but not now. Sure I could have tried to get with some random girls that I know or did know in my past, but there's no point going from one to the next in a matter of days or weeks or even months! I just don't get it. Take your time and learn from the experience. Grow!

I have heard a saying that goes something like this: "To get over the old one, go find a new one"! I don't understand. Je ne comprend pas! There is this lyric that I like and it says "When I fall in love/ I take my time/ There's no need to hurry when/ I'm making up my mind" What's the point in rushing into a relationship? When we rush in we become like fools. We have such a long time to go slowly and just live our lives. I'm happy and excited about what tomorrow brings. I know who I will still be close with and also who I won't, but I can share my happiness with my friends. Right now, friends are all I need. I'm not wanting to ruin many of my female friendships to see if it could work out in the end, when I know that I wouldn't be able to. Once I know her and she knows me, we'll be able to work things out a lot easier. I think it just makes things easier in the end. My life is full of obstacles constantly, but yeah... I have nothing else to say really. I don't even know if what I said made any sense. If you can't understand what I just wrote here is the synopsis in a few short sentences...

Couples that are all over eachother and are very private make me feel awkward. Couples who aren't all over eachother I tend to like more. I am not rushing into any relationship in the near future. I like to wait and take my time in making sure everything is right. So yes... hopefully that was concise enough for you and I'm going to bed... it's 2:22 AM make a wish!

L8s, latex and all that love stuff

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

JMRAZ!!!!

Okay, so firstly I have this weird issue where I hate typing more than one post a day, but I guess today is going to change all of that! So here it goes.... I just had to mention that I have been hearing Jason Mraz's songs everywhere lately. Like I was walking through the mall and I heard his song "Curbside Prophet"! Today on tv I heard another of his singles. Yesterday I heard his single at the pub I went to. Anyways, I'm really excited for this apparent up and coming. I just bought his fourth album a few weeks ago and I haven't been able to let go of it yet. It's just so awesome with his wordplay and those chords that just seem to work. It's very different from what so much of the mainstream steam that I hear a lot of. It's pretty folkish/country, but oddly with a slight pop/mainstream sound mixed in with it. The way he just takes a certain set of chords and creates it into a song using lyrics and intonation of words just makes me wanting to listen to him more. I don't know all the technical terms for what I'm trying to say, but all I know is there is something that I just really admire and like about this dude... so yes... if you want I'll send some stuff, if not... oh well too bad so sad. If you ever get a chance his three major hits were "curbside prophet," "the remedy," and "wordplay!" But for a spin on things listen to his song "On Love, In Sadness" both live and studio versions because *kisses fingers like the Italian-Stallions* Perfecto! Okay I think that's it for today... L8s, latex and all that love stuff

Keep. It. Simple. Stupid.

K.I.S.S. this is what I'm going to try for this post! So here it goes...

I think I have ADHD! In fact a bunch of people who I have never brought it up with have mentioned it. Yesterday, I looked ADHD symptoms and, boy, do I got a lot of those. I was definitely like "yup, yup yup yup yup yup... mmm not all the time.... yup yupp yup yup!" it was crazy! So today I went to the CSD (centre for students with disabilities)! I booked an appointment... ACK! never thought I'd come to this. but oh well. With this twitch in my leg and my constant getting distracted from writing this post/blog/whatever you want to call it. I will leave you with this... in about a month we will soon find out this question of my life... is Nathan crazy? or does he have ADHD? I say the latter with a little bit of the first one... this was longer than I wanted it to be, but never the less (haha...that's my saying)... umm... YES ADHD! l8s, latex and all that love stuff

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

2 decades done...

... and it came to a great end!

Listening: "In a Coma" album by Matthew Good

Yesterday, oh yesterday! I wasn't really planning on doing much for my birthday! A little TV watching in the morning, take a shower and then drive to Guelph, sit in the UC and do some pre-schoolwork work! But at around noonish I received a phone call. A phone call that definitely changed the rest of my day! It was Jessica Krapez. Calling to wish me a Happy Birthday. She continued to tell me that she was on her way to Square One to buy her boyfriend a birthday gift. I ended up going with her and had to get ready quickly. We got to Sq.1 and we went shopping. Walked into the two stores that apparently he loves and literally spent like 1-2 hrs in Boathouse with one of the sales clerk trying to find something. We ended up picking stuff and paid for it.

Jess is a lot more picky then I ever imagined! Then we went to Old Navy where she bought this hoodie thing-a-ma-bobber. We then went for lunch in the food court. Had Teriyaki wraps, which were pretty darn good tastin' and then we went for some DQ. After that we left Square 1 and we went to Sports National, where JessiKa bought her soccer shoes. She dropped me off at home, I packed and I left for Guelph. As soon as I arrived I sat down and played my guitar because it had been a while. I ended up coming up with the beginnings of another song. I just need to write lyrics and hope that it all works out the way I want. I know it's going to have something to do with the beach right now. My thoughts for it is - sand, sunrise, birds, waves splashing, sandcastles, love, in awe of nature. Man, the chords really make it sound almost R&Bish... which is pretty cool... well for me anyways!

I then went out for dinner with Alysha. Mmmm Casey's! It was fun and then we went to William's Coffee Pub after, Mmmm coffee! I put pepper in me cappucino thinking it was choco powder, but nope it wasn't... ick pepper in coffee makes me sick! anyways, I then went home and went to bed... that was my fabulous day. Really you had to be there to enjoy it all... so "have a great day" as my saying goes and I will see you soontime! L8s, latex and all that love stuff!

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Birthday Lunch with the Fam!

So today is Sunday and my birthday is apparently tomorrow... well that's what people keep telling me! 2 decades will be finished in a few years.... and I'm not really feeling so joyous right now. Lately I've been feeling really tired and just wanting to get away from everything. I've been having tons of fun with friends and stuff, but not wanting to have fun with them at the same time. It's weird. I'll call it my down time.

Anyways, I feel like many people don't see how pleased I am with the gifts that I was given because they can't see it in my face. I haven't been smiling much today and I think it's becuase I want to be away from it all... have time for just me, by myself and no distractions. So whoever reads this that may feel that I wasn't appreciative of anything that they've done for me. I tell you it's not the case at all. I really do appreciate you and what you've done, but it's a total inward appreciation. My dad got me a daily devotional. At first I was not too impressed, but then I remembered that I actually wanted one because I need to start doing devotionals... so thanks dad! From both my parents, they gave me a gift card to help pay for my iPod... that was sweet! My sister and Mark got me a gift certificate to help pay for iPod as well. That was so sweet because now I'm half way there. So thanks to all of you.

Alex thanks for the JLegend dvd... it's awesome. Oh and thanks for the dinner that time at Casey's... really appreciate it dude. Heather, I haven't seen the card yet, but I can't wait to go back to Guelph and open it up... Thanks! I'll be stopping by the Waterloo library to say thanks in person and to bother you of course.. haha! Liz thanks for the card and for the gift... I won't mention it because apparently I'm not supposed to say anything... hahaha! and thanks for my birthday brunch at Swiss Chalet... You're great! Ashley thanks for the card... I loved it... I hope it'll be monsterously happy too! I'll be back in b-town soon time!

As for the rest of you... who didn't get me anything... THANK YOU! I appreciate the words so much more than any gift I could get, because I know that it is coming from your heart and those inner deep feelings that are all mushy and gushy and icky ick ick! I've got a great number of people that make my life so crazy fun important.. so yes Thanks to all of you dudes and dudettes... Awesomeness! I think that's everyone, if by any chance I might have forgotten something you gave me... I'm sorry, but my dead tired mind is having trouble remember everything.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

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Friday, May 05, 2006

Blast Off!!!

Sounds of explosion lifting a rocket into the air.... Blast Off! My summer rocket has launched and it's on a weird path. I've been driving back and forth to so many places - Brampton, Guelph, and Waterloo/Kitchener mostly. Sometimes by myself, but majorily with friends. We've listened to OLP, Dave Matthews, Dogwood, Switchfoot, Hillsong United, John Mayer, and Jason Mraz of course. Head banging, air guitar, air drums, jumping in our seats, and of coures my favourite, singing at the top of our lungs and attempting harmony when you can't even hear yourself.

They're good times, but on my trips back and forth from Brampton have been drives of boredom. I used to be able to spend endless time by myself and be happy I was, but now I can't. I find it utterly impossible and as soon as I am done hanging out with people and I head home, I get bored as fast as I was so thrilled to be around people. As you can probably guess, I'm by myself at this moment, hence the typing of this post.

So a look back at this week. Last Friday I came home after spending a great time with my Guelph Crew Thursday night. Friday night I went out with Nitin and Ashley, to go surprise Jessica Carruthers at her new house. Saturday, for lunch I went out with Chris Padiath for lunch at Wendy's, then went to Timmie's with Buckwad. After that I went to Ashley's house for a going away party for Nitin as he is now gone for 3 weeks to Nicaragua and Costa Rica, but he never showed up... so yeh... it was great party for him though! YEY RENT *eyes roll* I went back home to Guelph on Tuesday evening. I hung out with Lauren on Wednesday as she took a sick day... that was fun. Watching her spend money and asking me if she should buy them... hahahaha! Then went to Waterloo to see HeatheRush... and we walked through the park... sweeters!

Came back to Brampton yesterday afternoon. and I called Ashley and we chilled all day. Running one errand that took 5 hours to do... ASHLEY NEXT TIME GET THE FAX NUMBER FIRST!!!! We went and bothered Jessica and Daniel, as it was their alone time and what not.. funny fun fun... haha! and then we went to ashley's house and went to Jessica Krapez's for a late night hot tub swim, but I didn't go. People can't pressure me into anything I am a rock! GRRR!!!! anyways and here I am sitting still, with two cousins from Ottawa who just arrived to say by to their mother who is moving to India today. and that's all I got... Birthday count down 3 days... wazzoooo... 2 decades completed like that... in a snap *snaps*... i'm audi! L8s, latex and all that love stuff... I have this urge to sign off with Ooots.. why is this happening to me??? AHHHHH!!!! 3rd time in like 30 minutes! ACK!