Like the wind, sometimes its dead and sometimes its strong
But no matter what in the end I feel like I'm wrong
I feel better one day and fix all the glitches
Not even 20 hours go by and life's back at being a ***** as
I can't control any of these things no more than a day
Of happiness will ever ever come my way
It's hard to realize that I still need faith and trust
And that it is all part of this life I live in disgust
My ups and downs go round and round
Hoping I'll be okay and just found
Found by you so these struggles I face will end
So my reason for caring for others I no longer must defend
It's a stupid situation and I want it over and done with
Tied up by rope and stuck in one place, I just writhe
Move so I can get free and break loose of this ache
Somehow fix all the problems that I will never mistake
Again for I know that to love everyone and make them truly happy
Is a most difficult task and the pain that comes with it is just plain crappy
It totally stresses me out and makes me ineffective
Just like trying to care and being overly protective
It erks my heart to see so many people hurt
But I know God is there somewhere for everyone inert
Hopefully this heartache will leave me be
And I can go back to truly loving everyone again, believe you me
Monday, October 15, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Anger In Me
Verse 1:
Frustration
I've got this little situation
And anger
should not ever linger
I'm mad at you
but you keep doing what you do
Elements of hate
is what I do debate
Chorus:
I say I'm there for you
But I can't be
I'm there for you babe
But I'm not
I say I'm there for you
But I can't be
I'm there for you babe
I'm actually not
Verse 2:
So Angry at you
I can't see your face
Don't look at me
My blood rises to a high place
The steam comes out my ears
Can't let you see my tears
I'm just angry at you
At myself for being mad at you too
Chorus
Bridge:
Why can't I stop this hate in my mind
My heart feels so cold to you my friend
It just doesn't seem to go away
I no longer with you just stay
I'm heading out that door
where our hearts are now at war
and I'm running far from you
so go and keep doing what you do
Chorus x3
Frustration
I've got this little situation
And anger
should not ever linger
I'm mad at you
but you keep doing what you do
Elements of hate
is what I do debate
Chorus:
I say I'm there for you
But I can't be
I'm there for you babe
But I'm not
I say I'm there for you
But I can't be
I'm there for you babe
I'm actually not
Verse 2:
So Angry at you
I can't see your face
Don't look at me
My blood rises to a high place
The steam comes out my ears
Can't let you see my tears
I'm just angry at you
At myself for being mad at you too
Chorus
Bridge:
Why can't I stop this hate in my mind
My heart feels so cold to you my friend
It just doesn't seem to go away
I no longer with you just stay
I'm heading out that door
where our hearts are now at war
and I'm running far from you
so go and keep doing what you do
Chorus x3
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Would you come here?
A lost man in the wilderness of life
Trying to use the sun as guidance
But the world has caused him so much strife
That he totally lost his only stance
He's walking in a random direction
Unsure of it's exact destination
He hopes that there will be protection
But is aware he has a lack of determination
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
On this journey she is going no where
A road marked with suffering and pain
She feels hurt and her heart is left bare
Opened to the world, lost herself, trying to regain
The hope is gone no more love left to give
But she tries to pull herself together
It's the abuse she took from that life once lived
She heard of this being you said he loved her forever
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
Trying to use the sun as guidance
But the world has caused him so much strife
That he totally lost his only stance
He's walking in a random direction
Unsure of it's exact destination
He hopes that there will be protection
But is aware he has a lack of determination
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
On this journey she is going no where
A road marked with suffering and pain
She feels hurt and her heart is left bare
Opened to the world, lost herself, trying to regain
The hope is gone no more love left to give
But she tries to pull herself together
It's the abuse she took from that life once lived
She heard of this being you said he loved her forever
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
Would you come here and speak to me
Help me in this time of need
Would you come here and open my eyes
You said for me you did want to die
Monday, October 08, 2007
Waiting on the World to Change
I'm sick of waiting
Waiting for this world to change.
It's taken me a long time to get here,
But I think I'm ready
Ready to realize my strength
And ready to accept my responsibility
to start changing this world
For so long I've found myself
Being insufficient and feeling it too
But I'm not
The G-O-D is on my side and
With that in mind I can do it all
Start locally and go global
So I proclaim I'm going to start
Trying to change this world
I'm going to strive to gain knowledge
Accept my wrong doings and just grow
Grow mentally, physically, emotionally
And of course spiritually
So it's now time to go off and do it
As the nike motto goes... Just Do It
It's what I will do now
Everyday from now on
Live life to the fullest and expect nothing back
Help others and expect nothing back
Follow the Lord and expect nothing back
The joys about it all... usually something comes back!
Love life, know you are loved
know you are cared for
JUST KNOW!
This world will change because I"m sick of waiting for others too
I will start the changing!
To change the world for you
Waiting for this world to change.
It's taken me a long time to get here,
But I think I'm ready
Ready to realize my strength
And ready to accept my responsibility
to start changing this world
For so long I've found myself
Being insufficient and feeling it too
But I'm not
The G-O-D is on my side and
With that in mind I can do it all
Start locally and go global
So I proclaim I'm going to start
Trying to change this world
I'm going to strive to gain knowledge
Accept my wrong doings and just grow
Grow mentally, physically, emotionally
And of course spiritually
So it's now time to go off and do it
As the nike motto goes... Just Do It
It's what I will do now
Everyday from now on
Live life to the fullest and expect nothing back
Help others and expect nothing back
Follow the Lord and expect nothing back
The joys about it all... usually something comes back!
Love life, know you are loved
know you are cared for
JUST KNOW!
This world will change because I"m sick of waiting for others too
I will start the changing!
To change the world for you
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Coming together
So things in my life or coming together. I enjoy it so much. I'm slowly pulling my room in so it looks like someone lives here. A desk was just purchased, in my favour, yesterday because I needed one for the imperativeness of my studies. I can no longer sit on the floor with my back hunched over trying to understand what I bible verse is saying when the bible that I need I can't reach for because it was laying somewhere else on my floor. Now with this L-shaped desk... All will be accomlished. YEY... makes me smile!
Movies! So, I've been realizing more and more that there are so many movies that I have never heard of or seen. So I"m slowly building written documentation of movies that need to be viewed over the rest of my lifetime. If you have any thoughts let me know.
School, it's going. I love the learning aspect, but some of the teachers I want to kill. I think that there should be a class where it teaches you to be fun as a teacher so you don't bore your students to death. I insert here: "chlorophyll sounds more like bore-ophyll" (Billy Madison). All teachers college should not let someone graduate if they can't pass the verbal teaching "let's make everything actually interesting" test. It's vital to all the students in their future. It WILL determine who does well and who does not. But other than that, I'm learning stuff and it's sticking in my head roughly... I just have to look back on some of it to remember. So far, I've read 6 books of the old testament! a few more weeks and the rest of it will be read... YIKES!
That's my update for now... I"ll be back later
l8s, latex and all that love stuff
nathizz
Movies! So, I've been realizing more and more that there are so many movies that I have never heard of or seen. So I"m slowly building written documentation of movies that need to be viewed over the rest of my lifetime. If you have any thoughts let me know.
School, it's going. I love the learning aspect, but some of the teachers I want to kill. I think that there should be a class where it teaches you to be fun as a teacher so you don't bore your students to death. I insert here: "chlorophyll sounds more like bore-ophyll" (Billy Madison). All teachers college should not let someone graduate if they can't pass the verbal teaching "let's make everything actually interesting" test. It's vital to all the students in their future. It WILL determine who does well and who does not. But other than that, I'm learning stuff and it's sticking in my head roughly... I just have to look back on some of it to remember. So far, I've read 6 books of the old testament! a few more weeks and the rest of it will be read... YIKES!
That's my update for now... I"ll be back later
l8s, latex and all that love stuff
nathizz
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